Why do I photograph?
This question as been haunting me for the past six months; that is one of the primary reasons why I have been "absent" from BPN; the other was medically related.
The question is not one to be necessarily answered by the professionals, to the extent that photography is their primary source of income. Of course it can be answered by professionals from a non-income standpoint, and certainly in my search for the answers that work for me, both the professionals' and nonprofessionals' opinions are sought.
Becoming a photographer, an attempt at being a serious amateur nature/landscape photographer, for me started just a couple of years ago. I still have my first email exchanges with Artie about equipment and approach to photography.
In late 2008 the relatively young wife of a couple with whom Jackie and I were friends died in an accident. Whoa! That incident caused me to go into a deep introspection: what would I do if something happened to Jackie? I had no interests outside of being with Jackie; and, what we did was travel full-time either in Australia in our caravan, or around the world. While life was/is wonderful I couldn't imagine doing that "forever" without Jackie. What would I do?
My brother, as many of you know from me, is a successful professional photographer in San Diego (http://www.stevegouldphotography.com/), having adopted this career in his "second life". I had always looked for something that would create a better bond between us and therefore I turned to photography with a vengeance. Some might say, and some definitely did say, with too much of a vengeance to the point of being a "needy" sponge trying to absorb all that was available, and in the process driving a lot of people on BPN almost to the point of exasperation at my incessant questions.
I was pleased with the results; I was having a ball on BPN. And, I was enjoying learning to be a photographer - whatever that meant.
The problem for me was my struggle with the concept: what am I going to do with my images? Why am I shooting all of these images; why am I spending all of this money on equipment?
Living in a caravan there is no wall space to display my images; I wasn't interested in pursuing photography to the extent that my brother has or that a professional needs to in order to create a demand.
There is an older thread on BPN that I read early on, I believe it was started by James, about what it takes to become a top photographer; about the dedication necessary to pursue the art of photography. I remember writing in that thread, prior to taking workshops with James and Jim, that I knew I wasn't prepared to entertain the dedication that James suggested was necessary.
I am sorry if this is a bit long-winded, for me it is cathartic; it really is OK to stop reading now or to continue and respond! Or, not respond.
Anyway, in October 2009, after being a sponge for six months including flying from Australia to Florida to take workshops from James and Jim, off I went to South America which included a 26-day cruise to Antarctica, and in May this year returned with over 10,000 images which represented about 20% of what I actually shot. Boy do the numbers add up at 7fps when you are doing it most days.
By the time 10,000 became 5,000 I asked myself why am I doing this? What am I going to do with these images when 5,000 are 500?
I couldn't answer the question! I stalled!!
A couple of weeks ago I did a 7-day landscape workshop on Norfolk Island, Australia, and one morning before we started I was having coffee with the instructors.
I posed the question: "Michael (Michael Snedic: http://michaelsnedic.com/) I am struggling with why I am here; why am I photographing; what am I going to do with these images?"
Michael suggested that my pursuit of photography had little to do with actually capturing the ultimate BBC image. From the time we spent together in various workshops Michael suggested that he believed that I pursued photography for the journey, for the education, the interaction with others either on the internet or in person through workshops and other avenues, and if I happened to created a "winner" that was simply a bonus."
Since kick-starting with the Trekabout Workshop to Norfolk Island , and returning to processing my images and playing on BPN, Michael might be right. I am still not sure of the "why" answer; it is a work in progress.
My brother suggested: "get a digital picture frame and load all your favorite images into it so you and Jackie can see them all the time. Just get the biggest your caravan can realistically display. And, you can start to make books."
Why do you photograph?







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